Enough
Well.
Hmm, I don't quite know what to say at this point.
My life is in the toilet. Literally and figuratively. I won't say much on here right now for fear of exploitation by some rather nasty people.
Besides that. I've been thinking for a while. Maybe I'll quit choir. Maybe I'll quit the Passion Play. I don't belong there, you know? Looking at some people's expressions during rehearsal... or I guess I should say, knowing that they're looking at me, has caused me to make this decision. I just don't belong. I don't really want to talk about it specifically, but to whoever reads this, I'm sure you know what I mean. I should pick another ministry to help out in, huh? I know. I will. Sorry for making things hard on you guys. I'll be gone for a while. Work is hard to find. And right now, I need to make some cash. I'll still go to Shepherd every week. I just won't be involved for a long time. And when I do get involved..I'll be sure to stay away from the Arts department. Maybe I'll help with cleaning up the pews after each service or be an usher or something. Sounds more realistic right?
Look, I'm not looking for any of you to join my pity party. That'd just be stupid. If you're reading this and you feel sorry for me, then you're an idiot. Why didn't you just tell me to my face that I wasn't any good? That's what ticks me off. JUST TELL ME FOR GOODNESS SAKE! I don't need "the look" from all of you, you know??
So please. Spare me the pity. Just stop.
Hmm, I don't quite know what to say at this point.
My life is in the toilet. Literally and figuratively. I won't say much on here right now for fear of exploitation by some rather nasty people.
Besides that. I've been thinking for a while. Maybe I'll quit choir. Maybe I'll quit the Passion Play. I don't belong there, you know? Looking at some people's expressions during rehearsal... or I guess I should say, knowing that they're looking at me, has caused me to make this decision. I just don't belong. I don't really want to talk about it specifically, but to whoever reads this, I'm sure you know what I mean. I should pick another ministry to help out in, huh? I know. I will. Sorry for making things hard on you guys. I'll be gone for a while. Work is hard to find. And right now, I need to make some cash. I'll still go to Shepherd every week. I just won't be involved for a long time. And when I do get involved..I'll be sure to stay away from the Arts department. Maybe I'll help with cleaning up the pews after each service or be an usher or something. Sounds more realistic right?
Look, I'm not looking for any of you to join my pity party. That'd just be stupid. If you're reading this and you feel sorry for me, then you're an idiot. Why didn't you just tell me to my face that I wasn't any good? That's what ticks me off. JUST TELL ME FOR GOODNESS SAKE! I don't need "the look" from all of you, you know??
So please. Spare me the pity. Just stop.