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There must be something wrong with me. I keep trying over and over to post something on here but the thoughts just refuse to translate into the words I need. Usually, I have no problem talking about how I'm feeling or what is going on in my life, but for some reason, I'm scared to do just that. Screw this. I'm typing it anyway. You know when you really want something, but know there's a giant possibility that you'll never get it? You lower your expectations, hoping that that will prevent more heartache and the feeling that you've lost something dear. But at the end of the day, you realize that it'll hurt just the same (maybe even more) regardless of all the precautions you take. Yea, I'm there. It's not like I haven't been in this situation before; the players are the same, but the stakes are a bit higher. For me, at least. Maybe if I just keep telling myself that there's no point in trying anymore, I'll actually be able to move o

It's fifteen minutes till I turn twenty. Yes, I realize the time stamp doesn't prove it. But I can't organize my thoughts that fast! Moving right along.. I can't believe it's my birthday! Can you?? What a strange and yet exhilarating personal holiday! My feelings right now are that of a cross between fear and adrenaline propelled eagerness; the kind at the beginning of a roller coaster! I'm actually dancing a bit while typing this. I love to dance! Oh gosh, seven minutes left! Too much dancing. Better type a LITTLE faster. I don't really have a "birthday wish." At least, not a new one. I've had the same wish for quite a while now. No, I can't post it on here. Aren't they supposed to be a secret?? You know, this blog used to be a secret. For the longest time, no one read it; so I thought I would be able to post anything. Not so much anymore. Don't get me wrong, I love having the few readers that take a little bit of time

So...I've apparently been left here alone while everyone else has gone out shopping. That's...nice? This has been the strangest weekend I've had in I don't know how long. Usually when my day starts out great it ends even better. Guess there's always the exception. Thanks a lot Murphy. You know, I haven't been this upset with my dad since he last drank himself willy nilly when he got a promotion. This week he found out he might get fired. No wonder he's been drinking a whole lot more this year. At least, that's what I'm seeing. I've never met anyone with so many mood swings. And this is not just because he goes all werewolf on us when there's a full moon. He's always been this way. Last Sunday, I had a conversation with one of my cousins about our dads; they're both quite similar in character. She pointed out that while her dad is just as crazy as mine, at least my dad goes to church. I didn't really have the heart to te

Here's the original Hahaha I don't know why I posted this but I can see why they all think it's catchy!

Is it just me or is this Friday not going so well? Lots of little things are starting to irk me quite a bit. UGH. Why am I in such a bad mood?? Usually on a bright day like this, I'd be clicking my heels, baking something delicious, and whistling all around the house. Maybe it's just one of those days. Maybe it's because I only had 4 1/2 hours of sleep. Maybe it's because I feel a bit lonely right now... Nah...can't be. Anyway, I was thinking about my birthday. I'll be twenty in four days! I should be annoyingly excited about something like this, but for some reason...I'm just scared. Could there be something wrong with me? I don't think I can explain this fear I have very eloquently so I'll just leave it at that. Maybe I'll feel differently about it tomorrow. You know what? Even though I'm in a bad mood, I think I'll bake some banana bread or something. In my opinion, baking should be considered a kind of therapy; no matter how

I listened to this clip quite a long time ago...thought it was such an amazing thing to hear it from a kid. Hope you guys like it too.

Wow, it's been so long since I last wrote something on here! Gosh, I miss it. But I'll be honest, this isn't the first time since my last post that I've tried to type up something. It's hard to crank out a post worth reading when there are too many things going through a mind like mine. I've attempted again and again, but for reasons only known to me, I haven't been able to put down any thoughts that made sense. But now's the time!! So! Moving right along... Quite a lot has happened. There's been heartbreaking stuff that still makes me tear up at the slightest mention of them. There's been other stuff that's caused me to just break out in sobs. It's a bit ridiculous. I mean, I haven't cried like this since February! What in the world?? Anyway, I just wanted to say, "Thank God for MUSIC." 'Nough said, right? Haha. God has helped me through all my situations with music. And even though it's not the best of

Lift Up Jesus with Pastor Dudley LIVE on Easter from Call On Jesus on Vimeo .

You're going to laugh, but I am currently getting ready for some time with my mom and sister at CHUCK E. CHEESE. Can you believe that? I'm actually really excited. Weird, don't you think? I think not! Chuck E. Cheese is great! I used to go there with one of my best friends just for kicks. hahaha Well anyway! I need to finish getting ready, so till next time folks! Btw, here's a favorite song of mine. It's Hometown Glory by Adele. Great piano and vocals here. And it's easy to learn!

Is it some April Fool's joke that Google and the town of Topeka, Kansas have switched names, and that YouTube has the weirdest new layout? I do hope so. Funny how we all complain about Facebook when there are new changes. In the end, we accept them don't we? Sure, we gripe and raise our fist against the man who has forced such changes on us. Still, we all manage to go on with our lives, changes tagging along. And this is where I segue into how life changes and how we all manage to keep moving forward; changes in tow. But I don't feel like expounding on that sentence. In fact, I feel like talking about other things. The wonder of the day and the distraught over the idea that the day is one less off my life. I get the sense that I've wasted seconds pondering things I have no business thinking about. Do you? Maybe it's just my over-analyzation of things. I tend to do that a lot in case you haven't noticed =P Anyway! Another thing I just thought of was how