Pre-Bedtime Talk
It's been a pretty tough week. Probably one of the hardest to get through in my entire life.
After a lot of meditating and venting, I've come to realize the saying, "God only gives us what we can handle" is not true. God has been pushing and pushing and pushing me; far beyond what I can take.
Sometimes I'll find myself curled up in the middle of my bed; sobbing till I fall asleep. The stress and pressure has become so great that it's caused my eczema and acne to flare up all over my body.
Still, God manages to give me the comfort and reassurance I need to get through the day. I may not know what purpose all this chaos going on in my life has right now, but I do know it will make me a better person in the future.
The kind of person that God can use in His plan for me.
I'm not saying that I don't feel anger or bitterness from time to time. After all, no one's perfect. But even in the darkest parts of my day, when I feel like I'll be consumed by all my problems, I always remember what my grandma taught me.
Wait on God.
To be quite honest, it freakin' sucks. But His thoughts are greater than mine and so are all the things He has planned for my life.
I just need to keep telling myself to cling to Him...and to all the people I love and who love me.