New Year's Resolution.
The past seven days have been so difficult and painful for me. It felt as if all of my burdens have finally come to a head. The torment has been unbearable; physically, emotionally, and mentally. There's a line in Anne of the Island that came to my mind just now, "There is a book of Revelation in every one's life as there is in the Bible. Anne read hers that bitter night as she kept her agonized vigil through the hours of storm and darkness." I have felt alone and betrayed these past two and a half years. Alone, from the lack of support I received from the people I called friends. I realize that I'm not everyone's cup of tea; there is no guarantee that people will like me, and I shouldn't assume that if I am good to others, they would treat me the same. To be honest, it tears me up inside that I have fewer friends than I thought. It's something that I have to come to terms with because hoping that these people will think I'm worth being f