Overdone
There have been a few times when I've looked at a picture of someone I dislike and I can only think, "I'm so sick of this person and their ____, it's sad."
Any time I see a picture of Vanessa, that thought pops up in my head. It's so sad how she manipulated her way through it all. It's quite brilliant if I'm honest. She did a great job saying exactly what Jenny, Laura, and Larry wanted to hear. I have to commend her for that. And now, she's getting closer to the dream that she said she wanted at her bachelorette party: to have money so that she never has to work again; to have a husband who will earn for her so that she can stay at home and have kids. What a dream, Vanessa! You're so ambitious going after that dream. Especially since you got your parents to pay for your education and living in Los Angeles.
I'm trying to see if any of that sounded bitter. And you know, I think it's the first time I haven't actually been directly bitter about what she did. Maybe it's the beginning of healing and letting go!
Maybe it's not.
I guess that's all up to God and I. We'll see.
I would like to add that anything Vanessa does get, she doesn't deserve to call herself a "self-made" woman. She never deserved it in the first place, but she deserves it even less now. And it's really sad how Jenny just continues living in her Vanessa themed fantasy. Or is it an Alex themed fantasy? Either way, it just seems so pathetic how obsessed she's become with all of them over time.
I'll never forget what she said to us, "Alex is my favorite because I have to work harder to get him to like me."
Wow, right? What a beautiful thing for a mother to say to her youngest child. Ah well, that's human nature for you, I guess. All I know is, that if they really think I'm a "gold digger,"
"manipulator," and "liar," they will never know who I really am. And if they try to pin those things on me, it will just reveal their own faults and insecurities. They will probably say the same thing right back to me if they ever read this; that's fine. I know I'm not perfect or even good. I'm as human as can be. But I don't go around ruining relationships the way they do....mass massacre-like.
Any time I see a picture of Vanessa, that thought pops up in my head. It's so sad how she manipulated her way through it all. It's quite brilliant if I'm honest. She did a great job saying exactly what Jenny, Laura, and Larry wanted to hear. I have to commend her for that. And now, she's getting closer to the dream that she said she wanted at her bachelorette party: to have money so that she never has to work again; to have a husband who will earn for her so that she can stay at home and have kids. What a dream, Vanessa! You're so ambitious going after that dream. Especially since you got your parents to pay for your education and living in Los Angeles.
I'm trying to see if any of that sounded bitter. And you know, I think it's the first time I haven't actually been directly bitter about what she did. Maybe it's the beginning of healing and letting go!
Maybe it's not.
I guess that's all up to God and I. We'll see.
I would like to add that anything Vanessa does get, she doesn't deserve to call herself a "self-made" woman. She never deserved it in the first place, but she deserves it even less now. And it's really sad how Jenny just continues living in her Vanessa themed fantasy. Or is it an Alex themed fantasy? Either way, it just seems so pathetic how obsessed she's become with all of them over time.
I'll never forget what she said to us, "Alex is my favorite because I have to work harder to get him to like me."
Wow, right? What a beautiful thing for a mother to say to her youngest child. Ah well, that's human nature for you, I guess. All I know is, that if they really think I'm a "gold digger,"
"manipulator," and "liar," they will never know who I really am. And if they try to pin those things on me, it will just reveal their own faults and insecurities. They will probably say the same thing right back to me if they ever read this; that's fine. I know I'm not perfect or even good. I'm as human as can be. But I don't go around ruining relationships the way they do....mass massacre-like.