A World Not Meant For Me...
http://www.youtube.com/show?p=UuLmxM6Cyno&feature=fvsp
The show just got me thinking...I set my expectations wayy too high. But, how can I blame myself for doing that? What with having a father like mine as an example of men, I have decided, unconsciously, to aim for a whole lot higher. But unfortunately, I am finding that I settle for second or third best. I don't WANT that. I want THE best that God has for me. But, sometimes, I feel like I'll never meet him. Especially after watching the show...
A guy like that. Would not go for me unless I was the prettiest in 100 girls that were left on earth; unless I had perfect skin and whatever else is superficial. Blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah...
I really don't care. But they do. So. I guess it's just a matter of time till the one that doesn't care either, finds me.
Well, that's a link to a show I watched last night. There's only 12 mini-sodes, and in many ways, it's really cheesy. But I watched it because it seemed interesting at the time, and it didn't take very long to finish all the episodes.
Anyway, I brought that up because it has something to do with what I was thinking about last night... See, there was a REALLY good looking guy in the show. His name's Drew Van Acker and he plays Ryan, a life guard in the show. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh, so cute. NO REALLY!!!!! Holy-molys HE'S HOTT. haha. I normally don't emphasize something like that, and normally guys like him aren't my type...but c'mon...look him up and TELL ME HE'S NOT REMOTELY CUTE. To my face. Without smiling. If you can do that, I'll eat 2 double doubles in a bathing suit. haha okay maybe not. But I'm just trying to make a point.
Uh, ANYWAY, so every time I looked at him, I was reminded of how high I have my standards when it comes to guys. I have this certain image of what I'm looking for...not just in looks (although that plays a good part in it), but in personality and beliefs. And as I kept thinking, something occurred to me; even though I'm looking for a guy that fits all the qualities I'm looking for, that guy won't be looking for a girl like me. NO!! Don't think I'm having a pity party. I'm not looking for kind words or encouragement. I'm merely stating what I was thinking.
The show just got me thinking...I set my expectations wayy too high. But, how can I blame myself for doing that? What with having a father like mine as an example of men, I have decided, unconsciously, to aim for a whole lot higher. But unfortunately, I am finding that I settle for second or third best. I don't WANT that. I want THE best that God has for me. But, sometimes, I feel like I'll never meet him. Especially after watching the show...
A guy like that. Would not go for me unless I was the prettiest in 100 girls that were left on earth; unless I had perfect skin and whatever else is superficial. Blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah...
I really don't care. But they do. So. I guess it's just a matter of time till the one that doesn't care either, finds me.
