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Going off of a previous entry about posting things directed at certain people, I felt that I really needed to share this with all of you. The reason why is because I've definitely had to learn to bite my tongue when talking about others while giving myself the benefit of the doubt. Reading all of these quotes has humbled me and made me realize that I need to apply this with everyone I meet. “Time and time again does the pride of man influence his very own fall. While denying it, one gradually starts to believe that he is the authority, or that he possesses great moral dominion over others, yet it is spiritually unwarranted. By that point he loses steam; in result, he falsely begins trying to prove that unwarranted dominion by seizing the role of a condemner.”   ―  Criss Jami ,  Salomé: In Every Inch In Every Mile "The modern conservative is engaged in one of man's oldest exercises in moral philosophy; that is, the search for a superior moral justification for selfis...

I've never been blessed with "good timing." Throughout my life, I'll "just have missed" someone or something that could have given me a wonderful opportunity, or sometimes on stage and in conversation I have dreadful comedic timing or just say the wrong thing at the wrong time. I'm convinced that this "bad timing" that I've had to deal with is starting to come to its peak. So many things have happened at the same time recently; things that have changed friendships and lives. My family has to move out of the home that we've been in for the past twenty years because some stupid judge decided that we should not be allowed to keep it. I've had to deal with a ridiculous amount of drama both past and present with friends and family. And now I just found out that my own parents were planning to use MY credit to buy back the house when they got the chance. I'm fed up with having to emotionally and mentally strain myself to cope an...

Bitter mindset creates a bitter person which in turn creates a bitter life. I have been this person for the past year or so. And I'm sick of it. I've held so much resentment, hatred, and jealousy against this one person that it has all but consumed my life. I know I will probably never like this person, but I cannot go on making them the center of my attention. There are things in life way more important than that but I have been wasting my time and energy on such a horrible reason. I blame Facebook. When did it become a standard of popularity? So what if you have so many "likes" or "comments" on your page? Does that define who you are and where you stand in the world? Thinking about that now, makes Facebook stalking so ridiculous and obsessive. What kind of life is that, that you are measured by the opinions of people on a social networking website? I blame myself. Growing up has never been easy for me. I have always craved to know what it fee...

WHOA. It's been four months since I posted anything. That's not a long time at all. So many things have happened since then! One of which I really need to have a rant on because I feel like no one gets or sees what I'm seeing...so now I feel like I'm the one who's taken some high dose of crazy pills and need am in desperate need of someone; ANYONE to hear me out. *Cue long and exhausting background story from beginning to end* I suppose I should start with my boyfriend's brother. He's an Azusa University Philosophy major who is going into his second year into becoming a lawyer. When I first met him, he seemed to not take me seriously and he came off (in my opinion, obviously) a bit arrogant and not as friendly as I would have hoped. So that already made it hard for me to fit in with my boyfriend's family. After a few months that my boyfriend and I had been seeing each other, his brother starts seeing this girl who is a bit older than him but is (...

Why'd you have to leave us like that? Without warning; without so much as a hint. I just saw you not too long ago at Nick's birthday party. Leila was in Brazil at the time, but you seemed to be doing great on your own. You were laughing with us. Living with us. Now you're gone. Just like that. We lost Mary last year, now we've lost you. I hate this. What's going to happen to Leila? To Paula? Their lives are never going to be the same. Our lives won't ever be the same. God, how do we move on? "It is a curious thing, the death of a loved one. We all know that our time in this world is limited, and that eventually all of us will end up underneath some sheet, never to wake up. And yet it is always a surprise when it happens to someone we know. It is like walking up the stairs to your bedroom in the dark, and thinking there is one more stair than there is. Your foot falls down, through the air, and there is a sickly moment of dark surprise as you try and r...

You're going to laugh, but I am currently getting ready for some time with my mom and sister at CHUCK E. CHEESE. Can you believe that? I'm actually really excited. Weird, don't you think? I think not! Chuck E. Cheese is great! I used to go there with one of my best friends just for kicks. hahaha Well anyway! I need to finish getting ready, so till next time folks! Btw, here's a favorite song of mine. It's Hometown Glory by Adele. Great piano and vocals here. And it's easy to learn!

Gorgeous day it is today. Looking at the sky sort of makes me feel...cool. No real way to explain it unless you've had this feeling before. It's almost as if the whole day was full of endless profitable opportunities, and you can't go wrong. Anyway, waiting for my uncle from Virginia and his wife to arrive. A bit scared at the moment. I know they're going to ask me personal questions I'm not in the mood to answer. And it's almost certain that they won't stop badgering me; especially in front of a lot of people. But of course, I'm used to this, right? Oh, how I wish I was. About three firetrucks just drove by, maybe that's a sign that I'm right; or wrong. Well, whatever the situation will be once they get here, I'm just going to have to put on a smile and deal with it. Optimism! I really miss my friends, but I sort of don't miss them at the same time. You know that feeling? Where at one moment you want to be around people, but o...

Feeling a whole mixture of emotions right now (besides the sick one). I mean, this weekend was great! One of the very few good ones I've have in a long time. It's just typical that my dad had to ruin it all yesterday. See, we all go to California Adventure for the first to have fun, right? We don't go to make snide remarks about everything we see, we don't go to criticize the amount of people there, we don't go to complain about the prices (although, that's sort of a legit thing), we don't go to show everyone else how bored we are, we don't go to SLEEP THROUGH AN ENTIRE PARADE, we don't go to sit through the entire Aladdin show and NOT LAUGH A SINGLE TIME. And YET! My own father manages to do all those things and then some the entire time we were there. He even makes my mother leave with him early because "he's so bored", leaving my sister, cousin, and I to trek out the rest of the park on our own. Don't get me wrong, it was b...

You know, holding a grudge against someone has a sickening hold on many people. It's like a kind of pleasurable heat that gives us satisfaction in dwelling on that hate and anger. Now I know it's neither healthy nor advisable to have such feelings. God definitely doesn't like it. Hating someone is like hating Him. However, it's...so difficult to let go of it. I don't care how many times you tell me to let it go. It's incredibly painful to let that last vestige of anger go. I WANT to hate that person so much. I WANT to imagine hurting them in every way possible. I WANT to feel the triumph in knowing that I hate them. Only I know this hate. That person may never know, nor care. They may never realize how I feel. But does that bother me? To be honest, no. It makes me feel even more powerful. I have control over someone in my mind; a place where no one else can touch me or hurt me. See, control has been ripped from my hands from so many individuals:...

Sick of it. No way around saying that I'm Sick of it. People like making excuses For their actions For their thoughts But I'm sick of it. "I'm doing this because I love them" "I said that because I care" It's crap is what it is. Making excuses for The jerks The douchebags The losers When they already make excuses for themselves They don't need you to do that for them But people still do People still believe that there's good in all But they forget that there's more evil inside Putting the blame on yourself STOP Take a step back and really see That both sides are at fault People need to realize that Love should only go so far And I mean the other side When the other side takes advantage of it I'm telling you now I've told you before I quit because You can't hear me anymore They're abusing you They're using you They're blinding you They're hurting you Why can't you leave them? Oh, I know You LOVE them, right?...

So, I'm just gonna type a bit. I hope I didn't annoy you guys...but it just 1) freaked me out when he broke the chair and 2) pissed me off that he took out his anger on us again. ANYWAY!! I found a tutorial for girls who are trying to find makeup to go with their glasses. This chick is GOOD =D http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=91-EqPzSiRA&feature=related (I don't know about you guys...but I'm not too keen on putting on the false lashes at the end...but it's still a good vid to watch if you gals are wondering how to do makeup when you wear your glasses!) Here's a second one for a smoky eye look when wearing your glasses ^_^ http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FeT7CsUdEsk&feature=related

Hey everyone!! So it's been a few days since I last blogged. Thought I'd type one this time since I'm watching a super freaky case on trueTV right now with my mom. Anyway! I'm quite happy/perturbed at the moment. I had a piece of apple pie which was SOOOOO GOOD. It was Marie Calendar's too! Love their pies. Ah, I also had a sugar cookie! My sister and I made some on Sunday...I'll post a pic of it below. I mean, how could you go wrong when you have apple pie AND a sugar cookie??? You just can't, I tell you. But, life isn't perfect, you know? Well, I just heard that one of my Aunts was mugged today. The guy freakin' broke her shoulder while he was fighting to take her purse. Then she fell and broke her leg while trying to go inside her sister's house. So scary.... And she refused treatment for her shoulder!!!! Crazy woman...well, I hope you guys keep her in prayer. It's really tough being in your 60s and having to deal with serious...

AND!! Here's a link for all things pumpkin if you're interested: http://www.pumpkinrecipes.us/ Happy Thanksgiving folks!! =D

Article link: http://www.philstar.com/Article.aspx?art icleId=526527&publicationSubCategoryId=6 5 And my bear-monkey friend, Sherman, wanted some of the limelight as well, so here he is in all his bear-monkey glory =)

I wrote a list today...just now actually. Well, okay, TWO lists haha The first one is about things I hope to afford in the future. Aaaand looking at a couple of them, it's DEFINITELY going to take a while. But it's good to have goals right? So I made a second one about who I hope to be as I get older and as the world continues to spin...they're more personal than I realized. Seeing the words on this piece of paper makes it seem so impossible. But it's what I've been set on for so long. I've prayed about it. And I've had my doubts...but whenever I jump back in and get involved, all trepidations seem to disappear and being in that environment feels JUST RIGHT. I...just wish...my family would support me. To them, it's all about being "financially stable." But that's not exactly what I want. Sure, I'd like to be comfortable enough to not have to worry about "making ends meet." When it all comes down to it, though, I j...