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Been having a nice chat with God lately.  It's dawned on me that I've been really selfish; making selfish decisions for selfish reasons and only freaking out because the repercussions are more than what I expected. Then there's the vicious cycle of going to church and asking for forgiveness and going back to doing the same old thing all over again. I HATE IT. I feel like I've drifted away from God so much. I don't recognize myself anymore. I've lowered my standards and turned a blind eye to things I normally wouldn't stand for.  I've disappointed my God, my family, my friends, and myself.  Without realizing it, I've given up what was best for me, for stuff that's not helping me at all in the long run. This isn't the first time I've had to struggle with something so serious. It took me over 10 years to beat my pornography addiction (more on that later). But I had God's help. You have no idea how many times I cried myself to sleep...

Wow, it's been so long since I last wrote something on here! Gosh, I miss it. But I'll be honest, this isn't the first time since my last post that I've tried to type up something. It's hard to crank out a post worth reading when there are too many things going through a mind like mine. I've attempted again and again, but for reasons only known to me, I haven't been able to put down any thoughts that made sense. But now's the time!! So! Moving right along... Quite a lot has happened. There's been heartbreaking stuff that still makes me tear up at the slightest mention of them. There's been other stuff that's caused me to just break out in sobs. It's a bit ridiculous. I mean, I haven't cried like this since February! What in the world?? Anyway, I just wanted to say, "Thank God for MUSIC." 'Nough said, right? Haha. God has helped me through all my situations with music. And even though it's not the best of ...

I ran today. Wow, do I feel good! It's been a while, so I was only able to do about 6 of my 8 songs for my "jogging playlist." Not bad! Considering I haven't run since high school =/ So out of shape. I really do like that feeling after running. My head's pretty clear, and I've got a nice endorphin buzz going. Sucks how short the buzz lasts. Just heard about the earthquake off the coast of Chile. 8.5 Incredible. I'm amazed at the power an earthquake holds; such damage and ruin it can leave in it's wake. Such loss as well. There's a tsunami warning for the people living in that area of Chile right now. Praying that they all reach high ground safely; and praying for the miracle that perhaps the tsunami never comes. That's all in God's hands. I wonder if He'll allow it to happen. Is it part of the bigger picture too? Is it truly necessary, God? Isn't there another way? Can't you change your mind? Course, none of us ...

Article link: http://www.philstar.com/Article.aspx?art icleId=526527&publicationSubCategoryId=6 5 And my bear-monkey friend, Sherman, wanted some of the limelight as well, so here he is in all his bear-monkey glory =)