Without a Doubt
Despite everything we've been through, I love him more deeply than I ever have before. Even when people have tried to tear us apart, or make us doubt each other, we cling to one another firmly and rise out of it.
So, should that day come when they try to confront either of us with whatever manipulations they have in store, we both know that it is nowhere near as strong as the connection between our hearts. We've spent countless hours talking about every possibility of what they would do or say in their defense; but not one reason is remotely good enough to even plant a seed of doubt.
They don't know how many times I have given him opportunities to go back; to save himself from me. I feel like I'm a never ending black hole of chaos in his need for stability, yet he keeps standing right next to me. He takes all the good and bad in our relationship and turns into bundles of laughter and contentment beyond the limits of what I thought I wanted. Even in our darkest, most tumultuous nights, he doesn't ever want to leave my side.
I can't begin to convey enough that I don't deserve anything from him, let alone the love he so lavishly gives to me every day. He is the perfect man who God blessed to me at the right time. Somehow, He knew how much we would need each other during these last eight years. He even helped us figure out the incredible difficulties of our relationship with more ease than I ever imagined.
So although my heart is still wrangled with bitterness and deep rooted anger, there is also gratitude. I can't help but be thankful that he is in my life; that he is mine and I am his. And so long as we continue to work together in this way, I know without a doubt that they will always fail to take wrench him back. You cannot force someone to stop loving someone else; you cannot just ask for God to break them up because it's convenient for you. That's not how real Love works.
So, should that day come when they try to confront either of us with whatever manipulations they have in store, we both know that it is nowhere near as strong as the connection between our hearts. We've spent countless hours talking about every possibility of what they would do or say in their defense; but not one reason is remotely good enough to even plant a seed of doubt.
They don't know how many times I have given him opportunities to go back; to save himself from me. I feel like I'm a never ending black hole of chaos in his need for stability, yet he keeps standing right next to me. He takes all the good and bad in our relationship and turns into bundles of laughter and contentment beyond the limits of what I thought I wanted. Even in our darkest, most tumultuous nights, he doesn't ever want to leave my side.
I can't begin to convey enough that I don't deserve anything from him, let alone the love he so lavishly gives to me every day. He is the perfect man who God blessed to me at the right time. Somehow, He knew how much we would need each other during these last eight years. He even helped us figure out the incredible difficulties of our relationship with more ease than I ever imagined.
So although my heart is still wrangled with bitterness and deep rooted anger, there is also gratitude. I can't help but be thankful that he is in my life; that he is mine and I am his. And so long as we continue to work together in this way, I know without a doubt that they will always fail to take wrench him back. You cannot force someone to stop loving someone else; you cannot just ask for God to break them up because it's convenient for you. That's not how real Love works.
